This was how close I was...

As I was giddily preparing to publish my first ever blog post, I came across one draft on my blog. I thought it just contained some few words and some ideas but surprise, surprise, when I opened it, here's what I found:

PROPOSED TITLE: MY 2010

2010 for me has been like a rollercoaster ride: scary at first but awesome and fun when you get to finish it. There's this pride in experiencing what you thought to be something that you can and will never do in a lifetime. It's like, 'Oh yeah, I can't believe I did it!

This year has many 'I can't believe!' stuff that happened. And I'd like to share some, if not all, of them.


I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M WRITING MY FIRST EVER BLOG!

I have been trying and thinking very hard since August to put up my first blog. I wanted to write. But I guess I wanted to write in my brain only, rather than in paper or typing it online. I've got loads of blog ideas that I wanted to start but guess what? These are only stored in my grey matter. This is the first and hopefully, not the only, idea that is transcribed in here. So, hurray to that! Hahahaha....

I CAN'T BELIEVE I BRAVED SHIFTING OF CAREERS!

This is I believe the major event of this year in my life. Really.

It took me one and a half years to finally decide to break free from my first job. To finally let go of something that I have been holding on for too long. Too long that it has brought both physical - terrible back pains - and emotional hazard for me.

The process have been both happy and painful. Happy, because, I found the guts to finally (as in, finally!), hand in my resignation letter and be firm about it. No early press releases about impending resignation. Just plain resignation. It came to a point where the values I deeply hold are no longer parallel with what the company I've worked for is promoting. As a person, as idealistic as it may sound to anyone reading this, I cannot just let myself be swallowed into the 'let's-earn-more-money' goals. I simply cannot stomach it anymore. I have been stomach-ing it for sometime, and I cannot just go deaf and blind with what is happening. Why would I let myself suffer for so long? I have a choice. And I chose not to put up with it.

Terrible back pains + conflicting emotions = resignation

And painful, yes, because I'll be leaving behind people whose friendship I've cherished. And, of course, I'll be missing my client (even though there were several client-induced stress) too who....

See how close I was? Well, there's always a first time for everything.