This was how close I was...

As I was giddily preparing to publish my first ever blog post, I came across one draft on my blog. I thought it just contained some few words and some ideas but surprise, surprise, when I opened it, here's what I found:

PROPOSED TITLE: MY 2010

2010 for me has been like a rollercoaster ride: scary at first but awesome and fun when you get to finish it. There's this pride in experiencing what you thought to be something that you can and will never do in a lifetime. It's like, 'Oh yeah, I can't believe I did it!

This year has many 'I can't believe!' stuff that happened. And I'd like to share some, if not all, of them.


I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M WRITING MY FIRST EVER BLOG!

I have been trying and thinking very hard since August to put up my first blog. I wanted to write. But I guess I wanted to write in my brain only, rather than in paper or typing it online. I've got loads of blog ideas that I wanted to start but guess what? These are only stored in my grey matter. This is the first and hopefully, not the only, idea that is transcribed in here. So, hurray to that! Hahahaha....

I CAN'T BELIEVE I BRAVED SHIFTING OF CAREERS!

This is I believe the major event of this year in my life. Really.

It took me one and a half years to finally decide to break free from my first job. To finally let go of something that I have been holding on for too long. Too long that it has brought both physical - terrible back pains - and emotional hazard for me.

The process have been both happy and painful. Happy, because, I found the guts to finally (as in, finally!), hand in my resignation letter and be firm about it. No early press releases about impending resignation. Just plain resignation. It came to a point where the values I deeply hold are no longer parallel with what the company I've worked for is promoting. As a person, as idealistic as it may sound to anyone reading this, I cannot just let myself be swallowed into the 'let's-earn-more-money' goals. I simply cannot stomach it anymore. I have been stomach-ing it for sometime, and I cannot just go deaf and blind with what is happening. Why would I let myself suffer for so long? I have a choice. And I chose not to put up with it.

Terrible back pains + conflicting emotions = resignation

And painful, yes, because I'll be leaving behind people whose friendship I've cherished. And, of course, I'll be missing my client (even though there were several client-induced stress) too who....

See how close I was? Well, there's always a first time for everything.

SO THIS IS IT!

Hahahaha.

After years (yes, years!I'm not exaggerating!) of beating around the bushes, I finally had the guts to write my very first entry on my blog.

Clap, clap, clap. Giggle, giggle, giggle.

Too much excitement, you say! Giggle again. I have been playing around with the idea of making my own blog since 2010, when I saw one post of a friend sharing his very own first blog post.  I got interested and he encouraged me. I fiddled with my own blog (I already have a Google account so it was not a problem), tweaked a few things here and there and found a good topic that is worthy of becoming my first post. 

And after a few days, bam, I got stuck! I found out that I didn't have enough ideas to expound my writing. And then, I second-guessed myself, thinking if this was really a good idea after all. I got 'demotivated'. And well, the rest is history.

And now, it's 2013! Hello to blogging again!

In hindsight, what really 'demotivated' me from pushing through my blog was when I started comparing my own blog site layout, posts and designs to others. I was like 'How did she do that?', 'Oh my, she has superb writing skills!', 'I want her blog design too!'. It ran around my head like a fly buzzing annoyingly and it got the best of me. Inferiority set in. It felt like I was the worst writer/blogger of all time. And I haven't even started yet, you see?

But heck, now that I feel wiser (I think), I realized that there are NO definite rules. The only rule is: WRITE YOUR THOUGHTS, NOT OTHERS'. It doesn't matter if it is long, short, very flowery, serious, or funny as long as it is your own. As long as you can call it your own.

And now that I came to the point in my life when I know I have lots of stuff to share, where Facebook, I believe, can't totally handle, this blog will help me share all of it. Oh boy, I'm really, really excited! 

So, kudos to me! Yehey! I know this is just the tip of the iceberg but I solemnly hope that my interest on this won't wane over time. 

Clap, clap, clap. Giggle, giggle, giggle.

P.S.

Special thanks to Ms. Nowi Burgos, for all the encouragement and help. No need to explain further. ^_^